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vacation time
mike and i are going on vacation to beautiful bahia honda state park in
big pine key florida. in case you are wondering what it's going to be
like, here are some photos:





and we'll be staying in something that looks like this:



i believe it's called a "tent".

and the drive will look something like this:

so yeah thats pretty far. we're insane. but we're really really really
really excited to get out of the city, drive across the country and freak
out! and swim too.

i'll let you know how it was when we get back. and maybe share some
photos.
xo

we have decided not to keep baxter after all. snickers is just too much of
a princess to share her area with another rabbit. we will miss him though.
mike and i love him. he is lucky to be alive.
he is going to live with a very nice lady though, who sounds like she
knows a lot about rabbits. maybe we can visit him? sometimes you have to
make hard decisions for the sake of others. i know i know it's just a
rabbit that i've only known for like three days.

but today i actually came to school! well i just made some face time and
then locked myself in my office and obsessively checked my sites. i always
forget that i have a gmail account, but i actually checked it today. i had
0 emails, but 139 emails in my "spam" folder. i never even use that
address for anything other than a status symbol anyway. (that's why i do a
lot of things i do.)
anyway yeah we're keeping the bunny. yeah he's cute. yeah he's sweet and
happy to be alive. he's improved physically about 200% in the last two
days. mike loves him. his name is baxter.
my computer is still messed up. so if you email me or otherwise attempt to
cybercontact me and you have no luck, that's why.
mike and i are leaving on a vacation on june 26. brian is going to be
bunnysitting. we will come back on july 3 or so. just in time to celebrate
the 4th of july and independence! hooray!
i think this may be one of the most boring posts i have ever made.
mike wanted to keep the rabbit and first brought it up but said "it's up
to you". so it wasn't me this time. i'm not the only sucka in the house.
whadda whadda!

well the computer is still dead, and even though i got *no* comments
yesterday, I'm posting again anyway.

some people at my school found an abandoned rabbit and i'm being pressured
to take it. which is probably not going to happen because snickers doesn't
like other rabbits. I'm looking for a home for it though.

that's all my news from today. in other news, i'm doing nothing still!

but i realized that this is like summer break. so that's okay.

not guilty
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discuss, i'll be back to sass you all out later.

thanks for the news mom, i would have been sitting in my apt wondering for
like a week before i figured out to pick up a paper or turn on the tv. i
don't know how to function without the internet. it's very sad.

my computer died. sadly and painfully. i can't get it fixed right yet
either, it's going to have to wait until next week. now i will have to
visit my office, darn. it has air conditioning.

mike and i have been sleeping on the living room floor which is basically
concrete with carpet glued to it. not comfortable.

living the city life is intense. whoa!

okay not really.

but i got to the library, which usually stays open until like midnight but
is closing at 8, the one night i want to use it. so i'm hurriedly checking
my email, checking blogs and updating. borrrrring. i am going to go back
outside now.

summertime and the livin is easyyyyyyyyy

ack!

so ooooooooo

the bike thing ended up being really. really. expensive. i had to get a
back wheel because apparently it was FUBAR. (actually the guy said someone
else had obviously messed with it before so the fall was probably just the
last straw and had a worse effect than it than it would have otherwise. so
i'm not that clumsy.)

so mike just loaned me a lot of money, such a sweet boy. so i promised to
make him dinner and have it waiting when he came home from work, just like
june cleaver. but really i'm gonna go for a bike ride first. i wish i had
some sparks!!!

mmmm sparks

...overdrafted my bank account that is. i don't know how it happened this
time because i was being very careful.

oh well....
i get paid on june 20. also remember how i tripped over my bike? I totally
destroyed the tire, it's all bent and messed up. so mike left me his debit
card so i could get it fixed. isnt he a sweetheart? he doesn't know, but
i'm also takin that card to the pet shop to get litter for snickers. whoa!

so i just changed my blog title. because i do with myself and with my blog
what i want because i am a responsible, intelligent adult who likes to eat
peanut butter and play with hello kitty toys.

on the page where you change your blog title, on the left there is a big
orange button that says "save settings" and on the right there is a big
blue button that says "delete blog".

that seems a bit rash. i don't think there should just be a button. you
should have to answer some well-thought-out questions about why you wanna
delete your blog. i almost pushed it just to see what happened. but then
again, as a teenager, i once stuck my finger in the beaters of an electric
hand mixer, just to see what happened. my mom can probably tell you the
rest of the story, it's simply too embarrassing.

let's just say, it gave new meaning to the name "electric hand mixer"...as
if hand was what it mixed and not which body part you're supposed to
control it with.

okay i did it.

it wasn't great but it's over.
there were lot of interruptions, starting right at the beginning, when
apparently, i shouldn't have used the word "referential" even though i
have used it a thousand times before and no one has ever ever ever said
anything. and even though i started using it because it was first used by
one of the people in the room. it was not exactly the right word, but
there is not a word for the idea i was trying to express. it is best
expressed as "highly referential".

but yeah i got tripped up by that and overall i'm not happy with my
performance. i didn't know there were going to be interruptions and that
sort of thing and i got flustered. i felt totally unprepared and there
were times when i was just staring wide-eyed and freaked out like a
squirrel. my voice was all croaky from the cold i have. it's so hot in my
apartment. i have a layer of film over my face, it's disgusting. i'm
totally chilling today after having a very difficult day yesterday.
because this cold, i can't shake it, because i haven't gotten any good
rest since i got it. so rest is what i'm doing but it's so hot here i
wanna jump in the lake.

sorry this is really rambling but i don't wanna go back and read it.

thanks mom for calling to see how it went, that made me feel great. :)

thanks liz for your comment, after i read it, i felt better. :)

i don't want to be famous. well, not for this anyway. i wanna be famous
for having the world's most-commentedest-ever blog. no i don't know.

dear older people who went through your twenties: is it supposed to be
this disorienting? am i supposed to feel like i'm wasting my life?

i dont' want anyone to freak out, i'm not like what the hell depressed or
anything, i'm just, well i worked my ass off for two years to get this
masters degree, i got done and i was like whatever. i'm gonna go home and
play guitar.

i did feel better after mike came home from work and we hung out and went
to the bar and i came home and talked at him for like three hours and then
i tripped over my bike and i ended up getting injured on basically every
major body part, including a bizarre scraped up toe and a rugburn on my
wrist.

no, i wasn't *that* drunk, don't worry, family, it was just like 5am and i
was really tired and i turned off the light and then walked without
waiting for my eyes to adjust.

i think i'm going to go get in the lake now, it's so hot in here.

thanks for your support everyone!

stevie wonder summer, 2005, starts now!!!!

i went out of town this weekend. my brother graduated from high school. i
had a lovely time but i came down with a cold.

now i have to defend my masters thesis in about 25 minutes. i feel
slightly nauseated. but luckily i have a lot of self-esteem and
self-confidence and self-trust and other things like that, so i'm sure
everything is going to be fine.

actually i'm playing out in my mind exactly what will happen when they
kick me out of school and i become homeless and i have to eat trash and
live in an old tractor tire. and the state comes and takes snickers away
from me.

and i sound nerdier than usual thanks to that stopped-up nose sound.

ah well...blah! weooooooww!

i also haven't showered for several days. and you can tell.

i am the world's worst procrastinator. i wait until the last minute to do
absolutely everything. so right now i'm trying desperately to write a
paper, then tomorrow i have to go collect data, and get all my stuff
together and packed and drive to indiana. saturday my brother is
graduating then i'm going to bloomington. sunday i'm going to
indianapolis, and coming home on monday. the paper is due tuesday, and i
have to defend my second year project. which means sometime during all
that mess i have to write a talk and practice it enough to the point that
i won't sound like a total idiot. and finish writing this paper. im so mad
at myself because i wanted to have the paper finished yesterday and the
talk finished today but i farted around procrastinating like a
professional procrastinator. so now i'm writing anything and everything
in this paper, which is ending up sounding completely stupid, and i'm
going to have to write my talk over the weekend when i'm supposed to be
enjoying myself with my family and friends. i didn't wanna take my
computer either! im mad at me. and i haven't swam for like five days. i'm
going to drown in that triathlon. or get a horrible side cramp and fall
off my bike.

dear microsoft word,
i hate you. i literally hate you. why do you put those squiggly green
lines under my sentences? and then the only help you give me is "(consider
revising)" or "long sentence" or you take my sentence, which is written in
the passive voice, which is extremely common and sometimes even necessary
in scientific writing, and you flip it around into some bizarro sounding
dumb dumb dumb sentence written in active voice. i hate you. if you were a
person, i would smack you.
and quit putting a squiggly red line under every single name i type. just
quit doing that. because of you i am too lazy to reach for the shift key,
too. because you automatically capitalize things for me. i hope you're
happy that now on my blog i look like a big dummy.
did i mention i hate you? well i do. now get off my back. and stop putting
squiggly lines under everything i write. you're giving me a complex.

pebbles the bunny died, sadly. she was a very sweet and well-loved bunny
who was very lucky to be taken in by my sister and brother who loved her
so much and took very good care of her.

i'm very sad right now. i get sad when bunnies die. why do we set
ourselves up for this by getting pets that are obviously gonna die way
before we do? mike and i have been mourning the loss of two beautiful
lovely bettas, sir willoughby and baconface III, for quite a long time.
if snickers ever dies, which she WON'T, i'm never getting another pet
again.

ky, your artwork is absolutely lovely.